I was walking in the newness of light after coming to the realization that I had been restored. It helped me to accept my “new normal”. Before I was told that my colostomy would be permanent, I had already accepted the possibility that it would be. Each time I would change it, I would think to myself, “you could be doing this for the rest of your days, make the best of it”. I would have the attitude of thankfulness that I was able to clean and change my bag myself. My only concern is growing old, my fingers getting weaker, and being able to do everything I need to do without the help of someone else. All of my concerns help me to live each day to its fullest. I’m excited when I wake up in the morning. I know the true meaning of “Thank you Lord for the activity of my limbs”. Some mornings are worse than others, but every morning I wake up and I get up. God is faithful and His mercies are new every morning. A typical day for me is waking up any time from 9:00 am to 1:00 pm. I get up and put on my glasses and slippers. I am in pain from my feet to my knees. I make my way to the bathroom, wash my face and hands, put on a pot of coffee, brush my teeth, and then put on another gown. Either I drink my coffee outside or in a recliner. I make time to relax before doing anything that day. I usually stay around the house. My pain level governs my agenda for the day. Psalm 116:7-9 Return to your rest, my soul, for the LORD has been good to you. For you, LORD, have delivered me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the LORD in the land of the living.
