August 6, 2018. How do I start to explain what’s going on in my mind? It’s like trying to explain the peace that surpasses all understanding. It cannot be explained, it has to be experienced. But I wouldn’t want my worst enemy to experience what I am currently going through. My emotions are all over the place. I feel for my team members and team leaders, as they try to be strong going through their ups and downs throughout the day. Daily we get emails from someone outside our department sending words of encouragement, then team members will send out words of encouragement to each other and then we would get an email from someone with a picture attached showing a group picture of a better day and time. Some days we would get personal office visits from past team members and co-workers. I am heartbroken for my team members and team leaders. I don’t know if each person is leaving in a good state of mind. There are team members at age of retirement, but not ready to retire; team members with only one income; team members with children and one income; and team members where their income is more than their spouse’s. I feel like I am in mourning for the loss of each of my work family members. Thoughts concerning my department would continuously go on in my mind, but I was at peace with my personal situation. I remember, during the Fall season telling my team leaders that I could be content being at home picking up acorns. Philippians 4:11-13, I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Well, I guess I will have time to pick up those acorns now.
